3年了，忽然间想写些东西，不得不承认自己老了，因为有些东西不是要你自己承认，而是整个世界都会在提醒你

当你身边的朋友陆续结婚，你就老了

当你身边的朋友陆续生仔，你就老了

当你身边的朋友陆续升职，你就老了

当你身边的朋友要离婚了，你就老了

当你身边的朋友考虑少儿教育，你就老了

当你身边的朋友失业了，你就老了

我老了

我还没有结婚

我还没有生仔

我还没有固定的工作

 

With all these stuffs going on, I really experience a lots, I know even one cent has its value

I work hard but the reward is just far less than I expected and I have to deal with many tough and picky ppls, ok fine helps my EQ improved

Have to say, en en I really have to let go sometimes

 

朋友会问为什么我可以这么不在乎

也许我不会计较这么多

我知道我是可以的

someone is looking after me and taking care of me because I am a true and genuine person

I always believe that好人有好报

 

Finally 对于感情

没有什么好着急的

因为勉强没有幸福

我也不相信真爱

因为爱只会变感情

生活是现实的

会改变人

变心就是变心

唔夹就是唔夹

没有说付出更多就一定有回报

我不强求别人

也没有指望别人要求我

就这样顺其自然，我会好好活的

楼，家，婚姻，工作，我会一个一个的做到，30岁前吧

真係老啦，記得以前成日更新spaceD弱智相，而家成日個腦就念住點樣可以又舒服，又開心甘賺錢，以前成日寫blog,而家真係一年都未必寫一次,even renew pics,just for makin money, y my brain is stuck of receipt of making money, haha, enjoy this feeling，遲D連中文都忘記點寫了，見到D細過我的人，還在跟新blog,影D弱智相，就念起以前自己幾甘幼稚，每個人都成長了，我想大家的話題很快就是今天股市上升幾多啦，期待自己快點趕上大家。有自己的事業。

That notorious guy is always tortouring me, mentally and emotionally, how can I stand it. biting me day by day, why I still lean on it. such a meaneast guy in the world, the bitchy whore, meanest devil slut, palm always itchy greedy.

I did tried more than once to treat this dirty guy friend, the ugly attitude really turned me off, knocked me down, why should I endured it so long, you mocked at me publicly, and took your statement over others, distorted facts, blamed others, talked nonsense. what a fucking jerk. I will revenge myself on you, I am not a silly ignorant fellow as you are, I must be tough and strong to beat you down, so keep pissing me off, bcoz I will return it back 100*100 times. wish you all the bad luck.

我真的本來沒有想去Melbourne的，就是星期二和Cici去看電影，看了一出Ventage Points的傻東西，然後Cici說公司有車去Melbourn，或者我可以坐順風，然後我就告訴了J，可是後來確定沒有順風可坐，我就放棄了。不過J說飛機很便宜，才69single,我買了來回就170,又可以去J那裏住，J又做我的Tourist Guide，所以就一個人去了，記得前一天還去了Easter Show，晚上還喝酒喝到1點，提前打電話去book了Taxi，還要半夜4點多出發，也夠折騰的。

去到Melbourne，根本沒有任何頭緒，J叫我自己坐火車去找他，先是在機場找了一下，問了一下老頭老外才買了去City的Bus fare,然後去到Southern Cross Station又不會買火車票，因爲那些vending machine不像Sydney那些有地圖，只區分Zone1或者Zone2，不懂就叫人幫買吧，那只鬼妹，害我買了最貴的Zone1+2，然後還好暫時沒錯，可是由於沒有Sign，不知道到哪一個platform去坐車，又折騰了一下，問車站老頭才知道去platform10,終于坐對了車，要去East Malvern，可是我不知道Melbourn的Train的門不是Automatically Open的，害我miss了一個站，要坐回去才見到J。

太好了，終于見到J，他帶我去他傢，Melbourne的房價還真是便宜，他哪裏租的比我的便宜很多，而且環境挺好的，可是我實在太累了，一路折騰飛機，Taxi，汽車，火車，還加上有點沒散的酒精，我去到他那裏就倒頭大睡，等到12點，我初中同學Christine就來接我們去吃Lunch，我們去了一家Italian Restaurant，價廉物美的食物不在話下，還有一些很Hot的意大利仔在周圍，真是秀色可餐，哈！Christine介紹吃Gelate（好像是這麽寫的），還真是好吃，我吃了我喜歡的Lassagne（好像是這麽spelling),還有一個巨大的Combination Seafood Pizza。吃完又要下雨，Christine本來想帶我去City，不夠最後由於下雨，我們就去了越南人區的Market還有權南半球最大的Shopping Mall，J在那裏又買到了鞋，縂的感覺就是Melbourne的物價水平真的比Sydney平阿！

第二天J帶我去City，I found myself fully indulge in the dymatic city Melbourne, Actually we intended to visit the phones wall, J said he got a picure snaped several phones lined up on the wall from his friend, he guessed I must loving it, so we planed to go to that place. However, we asked the information, he said the phoneswall is sth last year exhibited here, now already pulled off. what the hell, we came here for that.

We visited other places instead. firstly, we got out of flinders st station, which is the landmark of Melbourne,I recognised it from a korean dram SORRY, I LOVE YOU, one of my favorite, we took lots of pics in front of that, then we got on the tram, J said the circular city tram is free to all ppl, So lucky, the Mel-commuters, save lots of travelling cost. I still remembered the famous scene in SORRY I LOVE YOU, the second female lead and the second male lead filmed their AD in the tram, it was so romatic, that's why I love the trams, we then went to State Library, it is morden and fully equipted, the reading hall is so grand that make me feel like being in Boston campus area.

OMG, how can I forgot, we had a wonderful breakfast in front of the parliament.It was so yam, the fried eggs toast and bcon, I also love the skim-cap. We finally went to dockland. with comparison to darling harbor in Syd. the price of real estate is much lower, and so as the population condense, however, developmental potential is high here. maybe one day it could be Mel darling harbor. we still can snaped tons of scuptures' pics there. one of them worth mentioning, inspired by a cow pulled to the shore by flood, and hang on the tree, the artist made it, and attracted lots of ppl come there for it. I admire the designers' imagination and creativity, because when you are in melbourne, you will find every conor is full of artific atmosphere, you can see it, you can feel it, you can smell it, moreover you can experience it.

the third day, I joined a tour to great ocean road, and the mining town, nothing special actually, J had warmed me before that the tour could be boring, must be damn boring, but I insist to the great ocean road, nomatter what, it is another landmark of Mel, I mean It is breathtaking beautiful, and ppl go there even it took 4 hours' drive from Mel, totally 8 hour. Luckily I joined that tour was only 7 ppl in all, one family and I, the driver has doubled-identification, driver and tourist guide, he picked us up in a Benz car, haha, we r lucky!

the last day, J lead me the way to chapel St, basically equals the padington st in Syd, has all kinda boutiques selling designers' brand, it is chic and trendy. If you got money you will find it a idea shopping paradise, the problem is we are all broken pokets! man. the schedule of train W/E is different from the that of W/D, so we nearly missed the Suttle bus to airport, J had my luggages, you can never believe it, we had all those luggages on the shoulders runing on to the Southern Cross Station to catch the bus. lucky again I finally made it. but the bus is too small to hold all of us, the driver called a backup bus to drive us to the airport. we were severl minutes later than the first bus, but finally on schedule for the flight.

thanks J again and again, owed him a lot, helped me to catch the bus running down the street and bought ticket, provided accommodation. from the very first day I arrived at sydney airport, from the totally stranger to the acquatance, J helped me lots of lots, I owed u millions tons of thanks. Great frend, and you are really really a great guy.

其實我這次自己一個都要去旅行也有原因的，家裏發生了一些事，有人當眾humiliated my dad,我真想用ass words罵她們，在那裏搞是非，我真的不想攪和在這槃渾水當中，自我出生以來，我知道她沒有照顧過我，我和她的關係只是血緣上的關係，就算她go to hell我也不會有什麽感覺，說的很cold blood，可是如果你知道她是怎麽treat my mom and dad like dirt你就會understand my feeling.其實我們已經對她很好了，出錢出時間照顧她的還有誰，還不就我們照顧得最多，真不知那slut一次都沒看過她，還敢出來搞si棍。對於我來説，我的family只有我們三個，對於她，我不會怨恨，因爲她也沒有義務照顧我，但是如果任何人要對dad and mom做出任何humiliation我就以後儅那些人透明，就這樣，我也不敢打電話回家，我不想知道事情的發展，我只是想繼續開心，就像那些人從來沒有出現在我生命中一樣。

Today I go to Easter Show with Zoe Emily and Daisy, this is the very first time I went to such a Carnival in Aussie, yesterday Sydney was raining so bad so I didn't expect I can really go to the show, Luckily it cleared up in the morning and I finally made it.

Too excited, I have been looking forward for the show for a long time, actually I had some plans b4 to go to the show with some guys, however they turned me off the last moment, and let me down. It is hard to find some guys to go to the show with me, and figuring out our schedule may be a mission impossible, again luckily I found some and complished our "Mission Impossible".

Easter Show held on every year in Olympic Park Sydney, during the Easter holidays, many family go to the show to picnic, to relax, to enjoy themselve. In the show you can go to some extremly spacial exhibition, Cow exhibition, Horse exhibition, sheap exhibition etc, you can see almost all the poutry products trading in Australian maket are shown in the show. they also provide all kinda catering, fresh food, dairy food, organic food, whatever you saw in the show you can take some home, in a bag named "show bag". I also got a pasi hat in the pasi cola counter and I will wear it to melburne.

As u see, there are lots of activities u can take, I played one of them, I can't articurate the name, but I post a pic, you must buy some ride coupons to play it, and it will really turn you upside down, just like being washed in the washing mechina, But it was definetly exciting and I highly recomended!

It is so unfair uh? The sky of Australia is alway clear and blue, the perfect paradise the God reserve for the people of Southern Earth to enjoy one of the best firework in the world. You can never imagine how wonderful it was, when the firework just played in front of you, so close so near so real in China, however you will experience it in Australia execusively, nomatter for the sake of firework in Harbor bridge or Arena of Easter show. Being with Aussie guys and the laser lighter hitted the atmosphere to the highest level.

So great the show, love that, love my friends who played with me and share the happiness.

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when I took the train with Zoe return home, we talked abt a lots of stuffs happened to us and our old friends, just made me feel some guys when u regarded he/her as a friend you may feel very depressed, coz you will be so suprised why a friend can treat you like dirt, however those guys can never be your friends, bcoz u will get sick if u feel nothing to be made use of, so still looking for and standing for my best interest only. That is why I still hold back a lot, coz I am taking things seriously, when we are friends, we are friends forever not for this point only.

I will still be positive and be a nice guy towards my friends, coz stick up together is much better than falling apart. just hard to open my heart.